About
I'm Fielding. I talk about things I like and everyone thinks it's cool and good and no one doesnt like me ever. I am pretty and talentedd. I disabled my site profile because it is no ones buinsess when or what I'm updating or who I am or what I know . I am a view monster, I need to see number go up for no reason. Just take it away from me, for fuck sake! there are times when I think we shouldn't try anymore. I've been going crazy for so long and I'm so tired of it. I would just get rid of it all if I cowould but that's not allowed. maybe I want someone to see me and like me. it's not fair that I have to stay. I often feel like the popular sentiment I hear is a lie. I dont think people really want people like me to survive i think they say that because otherwise they'd feel like the bad guy. is your value not what you produce? aren't we meaningless without productivity? what do you expect to get out of me?
- e(y)/em/eir (aka Spivak pronoun⍆)
- early 20s
- unlabled / bisexual / whatever / hjbsbcd / arospec
- gender fluids
- Autistic
- piss and shit and blood etc etc
- at least 99% of my website views are from me because I like to look at my website
I took a personality test online⍆ it says I am INFP, but more importantly, I'm Ghost Rider.Edit: Myers-briggs is full of shit :( They really got me with the superhero themed personality test. Even people who are so hot and cool can be fooled. Goes to show.- Genuinely unpleasant to be around
- i get mad because ppl dont understand :(
- I just wish that I felt ok
- Im so tired!
- i do not have the power in me.
- bit of an insomniac! teeheehee!!!!
CPTSD and chronic anxiety & depression. The agoraphobia's gotten somewhat better :) well... progress is not linear.
one time when i was smoking w a new group of ppl and i barked. there are a lot of things I wish I never learned there's so much that I just want to forget about. I'm tired of sticking around.
I'm into programming and web design, when I have the energy. I'm interested in biology, especially microbiology and evolutionary biology.
